Nada is the Spanish word for nothing.
That is what my life is right now.
Nada.
I am a college graduate from a reputable university, graduated with decent grades I can say. I was an OFW before for 2 years. I haven't tried working in the Philippines yet.
It's been more than a year since I went home. It's been more than a year since I tried finding a job.
Pero nada.
Why? I think it's because I don't really know what I want to do. I am clueless. I am useless. I am hopeless.
I know. It's tragic.
There is a Job offer for me though in an insurance company.. as an insurance agent.. It is actually the first job offer I got in the Philippines after countless time of applying in different companies/industries. Yes I was overwhelmed. But after the initial reaction I thought about the job responsibilities.. I was like, it is waaay out of my line. I'm not comfortable with it. I don't see myself doing it in the long run.
So I turned it down.
I know. Stupid right. It's not as if I have any other choices.
But I don't really regret it.
I am a graduate of Hotel Management by the way.
It is a hopeless course for those who are not that pretty, not that tall (must be at least 5'4) and those who cannot speak other Asian languages like Korean, Mandarin or Japanese.
In other words, don't take this course if you are a PURE FILIPINO.
No I'm not trying to be a racist. I'm simply stating facts, based on personal experiences.
If you want to still work in a hotel industry anyway, take communication courses or business courses. These courses cover a lot of other industries just in case you didn't make it to enter the hotel industry because you're just -
5'1.
It's a classic story honey.
Tale as old as time.
Nada. Mi vida es nada. My life is nothing.
Sometimes I seriously wish that God will take me and give my nada-life to those people who make significant contributions in the society. To those people who have lots of things going on and people love them back generously. To those people who completely don't deserve to leave the planet earth way too early.
You know like an extension. Cut mine short and extend theirs. I don't really mind.
Wait. I think I ALWAYS wish it to God.
But as it turns out my stupid wish is not really a priority.
Just like my other prayers and wishes.
No I'm not mad with God.
I feel NADA.
Do you feel me?
